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I previously lost weight in a healthy way by staying in a calorie deficit and working out about 4x a week, and I managed to keep it off for around 6 months. Even during a stressful time (transferring universities), I felt pretty in control of my habits. Last fall, I transferred to a new university that’s much more rigorous and several states away, so I had to start over completely. Around then is when I started struggling with binge eating, and it’s now gotten to a point where it feels like a full binge eating issue. I’ve been seeing a therapist for both stress and eating habits, but honestly, it feels like things have gotten worse instead of better. Right now, I feel like I’ve completely lost control around food. Once I start eating, it’s really hard to stop, even when I try to stick to regular meals. I often end up eating until I’m physically uncomfortable or in pain. I’ve regained most of the weight I lost, my clothes feel tight again, and I feel really unfit. I still try to work out a few times a week, but it feels pointless without control over my eating. I used to binge on processed snacks like protein bars and chips , so I stopped buying those, but then I just switched to binging on “healthier” foods like nuts, oats, or whatever is available. I’ve also been spending a lot of money on cafes and , the vending machine in my dorm, so it’s affecting both my health and finances. I’ve always had an emotional connection to food, but now I turn to it for even small stressors and it feels automatic. At best, I can go one day without binging, but then I relapse and can easily eat 3000+ calories in a sitting. For reference, I’m 5’2, so this feels especially concerning. I don't realy have a fully established friend network here. and my family (who live in the Middle East) became inaccessible due to the war, so I haven’t been able to visit them either. My parents both also struggle with similar issues so they don't know how to help. At this point, I feel like I need to relearn how to eat and how to deal with urges without losing control. I feel stuck in a cycle I can’t break, and it’s honestly scary. If anyone has gone through something similar or has advice, I’d really appreciate it.
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