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My mind fucks with me ?!

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I really don’t understand this? And it shows again that weight loss isn’t physically alone. I began at a weight of 98 kg. (Around 216 lbs). I’m a F29 and 5’11. I gained a lot because of brain surgery so I didn’t blaim myself at all. I had to rest A LOT and couldn’t work out and everyone gave me cookies, cake etc etc to make my time in the hospital better. The weight occurrd gradually so I did not even notice it - until I tried to put on ‘normal’ clothes instead of sweats/pyjamas again and I was shocked because nothing fitted anymore. I wasn’t happy with that at all so started to lose some weight, and more important - I focused on building stamina again and getting better! It worked and I’m now at 85 kg (187 lbs). That’s still not a healthy weight according to BMI but enough for a lot of people to notice and to fit in some old clothes again!🙌🏻 That’s great, but the weird thing is, when I was at my highest weight I thought I looked pretty good. Now I think I’m pretty big and I’m way more critical with myself now than then. And I’m just starting to realise how big I really was??? And now my goal weight of 75 kg (165 lbs) seems wayyyy to high still. How does your mind do this? And are there tricks? I don’t really know how I look realistically anymore.

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